Only you Can Value my Heart.

Its Dawn soon sun will come up. I dint slept the whole night waiting for what I don't know actually I set my mind free from useless expectations & expectations of those who themselves never expected anything from anyone, Because someone with a feelful heart can't let someone so down. " Koi ni " are only words I say about it. No comments

IF I WOULD HAVE AUCTIONED, I HAD HEART OF THOUSANDS
But. I'M THE ONLY ONE TO MAKE IT OF TOES AND SANDS.

Non rhythmic, yeah might be, I'm just a word player not a poet. I do believe that sometimes my
Words sucks but this time theit meaning I dont know but they goes really good on me.
Well another for you guys, audience is Really essential to all, from an illusionist to a bible reader.

Beeti Gal dohrai, akhran wich Likheya.
Jaddo ishhq numesha lagiyan, sada dil bekeya.
Hor mod fer lae laye, Saadi ishq kahani ne.
Chir pichon chette kareya, us Marjaani ne.

Its Friday morning Sun burst out the Dawn Clouds. And I have completed the post heart is answering as if something yet to be here. So I won't publish it here. 5:54 am not a Bad time Soon a triplet will appear on clock.
Yeah its here 555 thats an Asian sign of laugh. But I don't laugh as u guys know well I have a tiring day ahead I must sleep, Or Just try it again. A lyrical pen off 5:59

Taare tod tod maheli tu saja laye
Saddi Kulli Deeva vi na jag ge
Saddeyan naina cho needan khon waliye
Aankh teri vi na Lag ge.

Lost in words. MY WORDS

Finally I got myself a title "Love Fucked". That loyalty still lies in this Heart but love vanished Addictness is a wierd effecting both sides. I guess no one is more poor than but it feels real, no one there to Betray or to fool you. Some playlists in some devices, a bag and some body covers thats my wealth now.
I'm living for words and want to be alive in words always. I was lost in thoughts this Evening I took pen and note I started writing without knowing without correction. before my pen down I got this, I'll share this for someone lost.

My Words as my Page is titled.
here it goes!

Lokki kehndey ne main khush Han,
Kuchh wekhde ne akhan meri che dard mera,
Kaiyan ne Labya Mainu tuteya hoeya,
Shayad onna sareya che waseya Rabb ae.
Kyunki main tan ajj tak khud nu ni Labya.

It's translation in English
People says I'm happy,
some Sees pain in my eyes,
Some Finds me Broken,
They must be living Angel.
Because I still Find my Lost...

All for today head is killing me I must sleep now.

Sad start of the day.

After Ages I'm posting something in day light. After spending entire night reading emails. I got the matter for my post, it's been long I'm out on the roads travelling living a hobo life forgetting the family factor of life.
What's the reason? One should be man of words, man of promises. Its time to be strongly stable on the promise, So I am.
Sometimes I feel this life is Really good for me. What's the point of Spending life having a bed of eight by eight when you can't sleep at night. Even now I don't sleep, but I'm not wasting its utility. Complaining to life or finding lack points would be a looser thing.

"That I'm not
But unfortunately I am"

The only person I kept higher than me, even that showed I'm below her. All Game of Life
I will live to optimum now. The only thing makes me laugh is word "Love" 555+. I hate to hear this word especially from you, for me or for anyother human being, caring for words was never there in your nature.
I saw a movie In February last if im not Wrong, there was a beautiful Saying by my favourite. here it goes

There are four questions of value in life...
What is sacred?
Of what is the spirit made?
What is worth living for,
and what is worth dying for?
The answer to each is the same. Only love.

I believe the Last Question is most Meaningful including its answer, now Let me pay you for the Love. I've been disappointed with me Family and someone particular. "Vishal" How Dare you? You never Follows my word I told you to keep everyone quite but you yourself Screwing things this way. Leave her alone Nowwwww
Blaming or Sparing is in the hands of one who Suffered, others should keep their asses out.

Paa neevin kolon langh jana,
Main akh tere wall nai chakkni!

Jo apne vichale wahi tun,
Main bhull k leek nai tappni!

Yaari da lekha jokha tun ,
Jad marji kar layin ni balliye!

Gam rakh laye teri “Gran” ne,
Teri hor cheej koi nai rakhni!

Hath ucchian attarian nu paya naion jana,
Tun tan teesan wala ber, sathon laya naion jana!

Taithon rahe khade nazar milayi naion jani,
Saathon agge ho ho k bulaya naion jana!

Taithon shohratan di uchi kandh tapp naion honi,
Saathon palla badnami ton chhudaya naion jana!

Ik nadi de kinare “Mehra” kadon milde,
Ni tein jaan k nai aauna te saathon aya naion jana!

And here is the meaning of it in English,
I shall keep looking down and cross you,
But won’t raise my eyes and look at you!
The line of seperation that you have drawn between us,
I shall not pass over it even by mistake!
Whenever you feel like, come and do the audit of this love that who got what,
I have just kept all the pains given by you, nothing else of you I shall keep with me!
It would be impossible to touch the sky scrappers for me!
You are a fruit over the most tallest branch which is far from my reach!
You won’t be able to look into my eyes standing over the road,
I won’t step forward and call you!
You won’t be able to jump over the wall of fortune of yours,
And I won’t be able to get rid of the insult that I have faced!
You won’t come by wish,
And I won’t be able to come because of my helplessness

> Disappointed

Speechless

At times, you come across some thing which just shakes you and leaves you speechless! To do so, the writing must be really good and should be depicting the emotion, whatever it may be, really well. And there is no other emotion better than pain. And when the pain is not just any other pain but the pain that one gets from their beloved, there is just nothing which can match its intensity, its deepness. That pain, those cries, those tears which come in the eyes all of a sudden when you are sitting alone thinking about some painful words that were said to you by none other than your beloved, some things done by your beloved which did hurt you so much but they still did them despite knowing that they are hurting you, there are not many things or words, which can explain that pain truly. Yes all this and much much more is there which just can’t be explained with any wording. I came across such a poetic masterpiece few days back and got spell bounded by it.

These lines depict the pain of heart broken guy saying these lines to his beloved who have left him and gone. Though she has given him nothing but pains, nothing but cries, still he loves and cares for her and is asking her to write back to him when she would feel that pain herself too. The whole poetry is just mind blowing but it would need a lot to understand, feel the pain hidden behind the words. If you have not tasted those tears of pain, probably you may just read it like any other poetry and it would not make any difference for you. But if you have already been through (and still there) in those valleys of  pain, you would understand truly what these lines are saying. If these all doesn’t make any sense for you, I would suggest to still read them again and again and I am sure, at some point, you would realize how much pain they are hiding within them?
Its in Punjabi and I shall translate it in English too. Have a read first of the Punjabi version,

Bhulekhe naal je mein yaad aayaa taan likhee meinu
kite mehndi de rangaan ne jalaayaa taan likhee meinu!

Havaa de vaang mein vi ikk bhatkadaa khaab is tera,
kite is ne achaanak aa jagaayaa taan likhee meinu!

Nahin mildee muhabbat jadon lorh hundee hei is dee
kade ese tasuvar ne sataayaa taan likhee meinu!

Mein taan maaruthalaan dee ret daa hi ikk musafir haan
je meree peirh ‘chon rukh punghar aayaa taan likhee meinu!

Barhe change see oh din khedade see ralke jad aapaan
kade is yaad ne tenu rulaayaa taan likhee meinu!

Je mein tere khyaalaan vich aje vee haan kite baakee
kade izhaar dil ne karnaa chahyaa taan likhee meinu!

Samen da har sitam manzorr hei “Mehra” nu ae yaaraa
magar je is ne tera dil dukhaayaa taan likhee meinu!

By: Sukhdarshan Dhaliwal

And here is its translation in English,

If by any chance, you would recall me, write to me,
If ever colors of Henna would burn you, write to me!

Like thin air, I was too just a stray dream of yours,
If some one would come and wake you up from that dream, write to me!

One doesn’t get love when he needs it the most,
If ever this thought would come and trouble you, write to me!

I am just a lonely traveler over sands of deserts,
If ever some thing would grow that path I traveled, write to me!

Those were just the best days when we used to play together,
If ever that memory would hurt you, write to me!

If I am still alive in your thoughts some where,
And if you ever wish to express those thoughts, write to me!

I am ready to face any punishment given by the hands of this destiny,
But if it ever comes and hurts you, write to me!

Signing off --
05:40+ Am

Pain Of Love Written With Truly Awesome Precision….

At times, some lines, some poetries depict truly what you are feeling. It doesn’t happen very often though! I happened to be in a very bad and upsetting mood today and what I saw in my mail left me with this.
Well, If you have ever been hurt by your loved ones, ever it happened that love has hurt you, leaving you just a body without soul who appears to be alive but actually its dead, you would love it! Unfortunately, I don’t know who is the writer of this poetry so I would urge if anyone knows, do let me know via comments and I shall put his/her name here because credit must go where its due! The actual poetry is a mix of Hindi and Urdu. I shall put the English translation as well.

Ye kaun doob gaya aur ubhaar gaya mujh mein,
Yun kaun saaye ki suraat guzar gaya mujh mein!

Ye kis ke sog main shorida-haal phirta hun,
Wo kuan shakhs tha aisa k mar gaya mujh mein!

Ajab hawa-e-baharaa ne chara-saazi ki,
Wo zakhm jis ko na bharana tha bhar gaya mujh mein!

Wo shaqs jo pathhar sa jee raha hai abhi,
Jo aaina tha wo bikhar gaya mujh mein!

Misaal kya k wo jab bhi kareeb say guzara,
Yun laga k koi raqs kar gaya mujh main!

Wo saath tha to ajab dhuup chaaon rehti thi,
Bas ab to ek hi mausam thehar gaya mujh mein!

And here is the translation of it in English,
This is who who has sinked inside and reflecting in me?
Who is this who has touched me like a shadow!

In whose mourns I am lost and wandering desperate for love,
Who was that person inside me who is just dead now!

That person who appears to be alive is like a stone now,
That mirror is broken now which used to be inside of mine!

What to say, when she walked beside me,
It felt that inside of mine started dancing!

When she was with me, this sunshine and shadow appeared like a magic,
Now just one weather only is there inside of mine!

I really have very strong feeling that I have done a terribly bad job in the translation. So if any corrections are there, please feel free to let them come. About the poem, I don’t think I am capable to say any single word. If you have not tasted the pains of love yet, you may find it nothing. But if you have tasted the tears of your own eyes given not by anyone else but your love, I am sure you would like it! For me.

Hope you would like just as much as I did!

Still Living !!

I've been lost? Yes, I know I apologise but having a strong reason for not being available. As you all know my chest been in bad condition since the year started but in last some days ache reached Bad to worst, it even resulted in breathing problem day before.
I've been resting on bed whole day, thats the reason being an owl I'm up at this Clock strike. Pain is Gone I punctured myself with an injection and that wasnt appropriate, because of it my hand is swelling now.
I must get my earning as soon as possible and continue the AS course its symptoms are reaching the upper body.
Enough of my haal, I'm alive for now
You guys live well & do reach me before I die.
Granmehra@gmail.com
Only option, No Cell no contact

The Story of Gran SD "which Can't be Narrated"

Some times, even when you give all your love to someone, give her all the love, care, affection that is possible, yet she picks up her Unloyalty than you. Even though you cry in front of her because of all what she did, she still doesn’t care a bit even about it and without any shame tells you that she has nothing to do with you, your tears don’t mean anything, it hurts! It hurts way much more than words can describe or voice can narrate! Yet some times, you come across such incidents, poetries which just depict that pain flawlessly. If you ever got hurt by your own love even when you loved her more than anything else in this world, you would love the following lines. Have a read,

Jab Kabhi chahe andheron me ujale usne,
Kar diya ghar mera sholon ke hawale usne!

Us pe khul jati mere shaunq ki shiddat sari,
Dekhe hote jo mere paon ke chaale usne!

Jis ka har aieb zamane se chupaya maine,
Mere kisse Sar-E-Bazar uchale usne!

Jab usey meri mohabbat par bharosa hi na tha,
Kyon diye meri wafaon ke hawale usne!

Ek mera hath hi na thama us ne ” SD “
Warna girtey to kitne hi sambhale usne!

And here is the translation of it in English,
Whenever she wanted light for her,
She just  lit my home on fire!

She would had understood the intensity of my love,
If she would had seen the wounds over my feet!

Whose every sin, every wrong thing, I did hide from this world,
She only went and spoke bad about me to the entire world!

When she never had faith over my love,
Why did she gave references of it to all?

It is just me whose hand she didn’t hold,
Otherwise she did give shoulder to many others!

I don’t think that there is anything that I can write to add something to it. As I said, some pains are not capable to be told in words, some wounds are not visible from outside and some tears don’t come out from eyes. Only those who have felt those pains, who have been hurt by their loved ones, only they can feel that what happens when none other than that person whom you loved so much hurts you and still feels no regret for doing so but claims that is right! It seems people forget that in love, its not “I” but “us” and its not “my happiness” but “ours”!