Being high is never baseless!!

Hi lovely people! 

Its been almost 6 months since my last publish, I have been trying to summarise my thoughts but believe me my brain-disk is fucked. Even small things seem like chemistry  equation to remember. A last minute thought so just to save it from getting fade. I thought, why not paraphrase it on white background for a real-time. For focus- I have Taare by Sabar koti playing on loop 3:44 on the wall, with enough poison in veins to get it done, It wouldn't be that tough now. 

It’s 7th repeat on loop now... So!

Meri soch che tera Khyaal na hove

Aahi teri soch ni

Bhula daiye tenu jiven, likheya mitata 

Aa enna koi saukha vi ni

Peende’ si peende’ aa Peendey’ rehanga 

Etto door rehn da chad de koi mauka hi ni

Tu ta mildi hundi si oddo har Sanivar nu

Hun es din dendi’ koi nava dhokha vi ni!! 

Tuhi banata mitata, uthata digaata, Suvata jagata;

Gran kivei na karu tera dhnwaad kure !! 

Tenu kuch kehya ni 2 saala che, takeya tera Chehra ni; kehnda hou tenu maada?

Jehn MEHRA’ da Enna Fokka vi ni

Aape dob ke aap lehra toh puchdi ae,

Mai Suneya saada haal gairan toh puchdi ae...

Saal 2 lag gaye, 5 7 hor kat jaane

Yaad ne teriyan gallan, pasand ni tere laare

Chal changa kitta tu hi sikhata mainu 

Hunda khud nu karna badnaam enna SUAKHA VI NI !!

Life has been through drastic changes recently, priorities changed needs changed. Last minutes thought before falling asleep is the moment I wait for, all day. Its been month no visit to gurudwara been a week no shabd as well. But it's nice to see people, unexpected stopping by to check. Siyane sahi kende aa ikko thaa sekh kinni der labbu, sooraj keda tik ke bainda.

I will try to be active going forward as promised every time. Busy on some plans- See you then !!

Stopped by for a mention !!

After a long time and remarkable lacerate year trying to write again, feeling and sparkless. Someone !! happy face reminded me of my publishes' & found them worth reading. She just forgot to mention time waste. AJ
I had promised her that i would look back at it & with left senses, I would try to paraphrase something out of me. I don't have a physical journal to write my daily thoughts but the heart-drive is still in functioning state. I had been thinking thinking & thinking for a year. But no rage ever blown out.

It has been a year today,

Saade karke ucchi ho gayi oh
Ohne umbaron taare tod laye, 
Saadiya kushiyan de rastey
Ohne apne ghar val mod laye,
Assi neeve aa oh kehndi
Ohde layak nayi,

Satho tod ke rishtey ohne
Ucheya de sang jod laye. - 10th February,2019.

Some people turn around while other moves on, some doesn't give a fuck about and many have gone through collateral damage. But i had left this decision with my heart, which is yet laying pending status. Still awaiting for the light to change.

"Odhe layi ta kuch vi ni si badlan layi
Sade naal kuj bacheya ni ohde badal'n toh"

Whenever anyone used to ask me about my situation i used to state that "I can be penalized only until i am enjoying it. But now it has turned back on me the fun of being penalized just doesn't end. or have I started enjoying it?

I had forgot mention what's so special about today. Last year same day was the last time when i was with her, last day that was on my name. Twining days doesn't vanish away but people does.
My situation here resembles some movie dialogue."Company ka diwala nikal gaya fir bhi munaafe mei chalri hai".

I have been through much lately and taken more than it meant was for. Let's not dig deeper, I would like to take a lyrically leave now, song by Garry Sandhu is one I would love to share here as it have a situational resemblance with me.

"Kasma Vaade Kha Ke Tur Gayi
Joothe Larre La Ke Tur Gayi
Jinniya Dittiya Khushiyan Menu
Vadh Ohtu Tadpa Ke Tur Gayi
Sab Toh Vadh C Maan Jide Te
Bhull Mere Jazbaat Gayi

Oh Din Gaye Oh Raat Gayi
Oh Pyaar'n Wali Baat Gayi... 


if I find anything else out of me that is worth sharing, you would find another post here. Until then Live Well !!