Stopped by for a mention !!

After a long time and remarkable lacerate year trying to write again, feeling and sparkless. Someone !! happy face reminded me of my publishes' & found them worth reading. She just forgot to mention time waste. AJ
I had promised her that i would look back at it & with left senses, I would try to paraphrase something out of me. I don't have a physical journal to write my daily thoughts but the heart-drive is still in functioning state. I had been thinking thinking & thinking for a year. But no rage ever blown out.

It has been a year today,

Saade karke ucchi ho gayi oh
Ohne umbaron taare tod laye, 
Saadiya kushiyan de rastey
Ohne apne ghar val mod laye,
Assi neeve aa oh kehndi
Ohde layak nayi,

Satho tod ke rishtey ohne
Ucheya de sang jod laye. - 10th February,2019.

Some people turn around while other moves on, some doesn't give a fuck about and many have gone through collateral damage. But i had left this decision with my heart, which is yet laying pending status. Still awaiting for the light to change.

"Odhe layi ta kuch vi ni si badlan layi
Sade naal kuj bacheya ni ohde badal'n toh"

Whenever anyone used to ask me about my situation i used to state that "I can be penalized only until i am enjoying it. But now it has turned back on me the fun of being penalized just doesn't end. or have I started enjoying it?

I had forgot mention what's so special about today. Last year same day was the last time when i was with her, last day that was on my name. Twining days doesn't vanish away but people does.
My situation here resembles some movie dialogue."Company ka diwala nikal gaya fir bhi munaafe mei chalri hai".

I have been through much lately and taken more than it meant was for. Let's not dig deeper, I would like to take a lyrically leave now, song by Garry Sandhu is one I would love to share here as it have a situational resemblance with me.

"Kasma Vaade Kha Ke Tur Gayi
Joothe Larre La Ke Tur Gayi
Jinniya Dittiya Khushiyan Menu
Vadh Ohtu Tadpa Ke Tur Gayi
Sab Toh Vadh C Maan Jide Te
Bhull Mere Jazbaat Gayi

Oh Din Gaye Oh Raat Gayi
Oh Pyaar'n Wali Baat Gayi... 


if I find anything else out of me that is worth sharing, you would find another post here. Until then Live Well !! 

Reviving very soon. . .

Finally a return back !! A Year, a couple of month, two week & 2 days as well.

Hey Guys!!
Been really long, apology for being lost. I've been in search for a reason to return i guess that reason is Delhi police. Yeah !! department of Delhi police.
Last year 7th June, I misplaced my cell phone and its been one year two months & 16 days they recovered my cellphone today, that's a really appreciating job done by Delhi Police & Mr. Commissioner. As i got the same device back i wanted to continue some undone jobs too, So I'm Here...

I'm so empty with my thoughts like my cell phone battery (11%) no thoughts & totally changed life. This year passed so unfavourable to me, half time sick other time resting over it. Core of life is exactly the same & i Promise to stay stickied to the original theme of the blog... Even the thoughts are dormant now but for now i would love to share a single breathe para' (rap) hope you like ...

Kash Tu Hoti Main Tujhko Batata
Sina Mera Cher dil Tujhko Dikhata
Nibhata Wadde Vo Sare
Jo Hathon ko Leke In Hathon Me
Tune Kaha Tha
Aadat Nai Mujhko Rone Ki
Par Aankho Se Aansu Fisal Jatte Hain
Na Karna Chahu Par Batton Me Aksar
Tere hi kisse nikal aate hain...

Its no Great saying neither associated with some Great person. But i have been listening to it since the evening on one - repeat mode.
Well time to sign off

"Adhi Raat Hoyi Ohdi Yaddan Ne
Mainu Kher Leya
Aaj Fer Tere Khat
Padh K Dardan Nu Ched Leya..."

Tunning back on special Occasion

Hey viewers been almost a year, I haven't posted a Single post. I was thinking since long to return back here...
This day is just perfect i guess its my friends birthday, its Naina's Birthday. People don't take wrong idea she is different Naina not the oldie one. You can follow her Twitter.com/mehra_naina she is my best friend & my only Surname friend...
#HappiestBirthdaySweetheart
Your just so Amazing, new year strikes on 1 January every year but your year Starts on 18th or March. Its a new start, a new age, more experience, a lot to do all the above you have to party hard its your Birthday birthday month : )
The year you were born marks only your entry into the world. Other years where you prove your worth, they are the ones worth celebrating & you have already proved yourself to be the best.

Some famous sayings for you.
# Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Your than You.

# Let go of all the regrets you had,
Let go of all the pain,
There is a long way to go,
So forget about your gain,
Just enjoy your life,
Because that is the only way to survive

Godblessyou

Only you Can Value my Heart.

Its Dawn soon sun will come up. I dint slept the whole night waiting for what I don't know actually I set my mind free from useless expectations & expectations of those who themselves never expected anything from anyone, Because someone with a feelful heart can't let someone so down. " Koi ni " are only words I say about it. No comments

IF I WOULD HAVE AUCTIONED, I HAD HEART OF THOUSANDS
But. I'M THE ONLY ONE TO MAKE IT OF TOES AND SANDS.

Non rhythmic, yeah might be, I'm just a word player not a poet. I do believe that sometimes my
Words sucks but this time theit meaning I dont know but they goes really good on me.
Well another for you guys, audience is Really essential to all, from an illusionist to a bible reader.

Beeti Gal dohrai, akhran wich Likheya.
Jaddo ishhq numesha lagiyan, sada dil bekeya.
Hor mod fer lae laye, Saadi ishq kahani ne.
Chir pichon chette kareya, us Marjaani ne.

Its Friday morning Sun burst out the Dawn Clouds. And I have completed the post heart is answering as if something yet to be here. So I won't publish it here. 5:54 am not a Bad time Soon a triplet will appear on clock.
Yeah its here 555 thats an Asian sign of laugh. But I don't laugh as u guys know well I have a tiring day ahead I must sleep, Or Just try it again. A lyrical pen off 5:59

Taare tod tod maheli tu saja laye
Saddi Kulli Deeva vi na jag ge
Saddeyan naina cho needan khon waliye
Aankh teri vi na Lag ge.

Lost in words. MY WORDS

Finally I got myself a title "Love Fucked". That loyalty still lies in this Heart but love vanished Addictness is a wierd effecting both sides. I guess no one is more poor than but it feels real, no one there to Betray or to fool you. Some playlists in some devices, a bag and some body covers thats my wealth now.
I'm living for words and want to be alive in words always. I was lost in thoughts this Evening I took pen and note I started writing without knowing without correction. before my pen down I got this, I'll share this for someone lost.

My Words as my Page is titled.
here it goes!

Lokki kehndey ne main khush Han,
Kuchh wekhde ne akhan meri che dard mera,
Kaiyan ne Labya Mainu tuteya hoeya,
Shayad onna sareya che waseya Rabb ae.
Kyunki main tan ajj tak khud nu ni Labya.

It's translation in English
People says I'm happy,
some Sees pain in my eyes,
Some Finds me Broken,
They must be living Angel.
Because I still Find my Lost...

All for today head is killing me I must sleep now.

Sad start of the day.

After Ages I'm posting something in day light. After spending entire night reading emails. I got the matter for my post, it's been long I'm out on the roads travelling living a hobo life forgetting the family factor of life.
What's the reason? One should be man of words, man of promises. Its time to be strongly stable on the promise, So I am.
Sometimes I feel this life is Really good for me. What's the point of Spending life having a bed of eight by eight when you can't sleep at night. Even now I don't sleep, but I'm not wasting its utility. Complaining to life or finding lack points would be a looser thing.

"That I'm not
But unfortunately I am"

The only person I kept higher than me, even that showed I'm below her. All Game of Life
I will live to optimum now. The only thing makes me laugh is word "Love" 555+. I hate to hear this word especially from you, for me or for anyother human being, caring for words was never there in your nature.
I saw a movie In February last if im not Wrong, there was a beautiful Saying by my favourite. here it goes

There are four questions of value in life...
What is sacred?
Of what is the spirit made?
What is worth living for,
and what is worth dying for?
The answer to each is the same. Only love.

I believe the Last Question is most Meaningful including its answer, now Let me pay you for the Love. I've been disappointed with me Family and someone particular. "Vishal" How Dare you? You never Follows my word I told you to keep everyone quite but you yourself Screwing things this way. Leave her alone Nowwwww
Blaming or Sparing is in the hands of one who Suffered, others should keep their asses out.

Paa neevin kolon langh jana,
Main akh tere wall nai chakkni!

Jo apne vichale wahi tun,
Main bhull k leek nai tappni!

Yaari da lekha jokha tun ,
Jad marji kar layin ni balliye!

Gam rakh laye teri “Gran” ne,
Teri hor cheej koi nai rakhni!

Hath ucchian attarian nu paya naion jana,
Tun tan teesan wala ber, sathon laya naion jana!

Taithon rahe khade nazar milayi naion jani,
Saathon agge ho ho k bulaya naion jana!

Taithon shohratan di uchi kandh tapp naion honi,
Saathon palla badnami ton chhudaya naion jana!

Ik nadi de kinare “Mehra” kadon milde,
Ni tein jaan k nai aauna te saathon aya naion jana!

And here is the meaning of it in English,
I shall keep looking down and cross you,
But won’t raise my eyes and look at you!
The line of seperation that you have drawn between us,
I shall not pass over it even by mistake!
Whenever you feel like, come and do the audit of this love that who got what,
I have just kept all the pains given by you, nothing else of you I shall keep with me!
It would be impossible to touch the sky scrappers for me!
You are a fruit over the most tallest branch which is far from my reach!
You won’t be able to look into my eyes standing over the road,
I won’t step forward and call you!
You won’t be able to jump over the wall of fortune of yours,
And I won’t be able to get rid of the insult that I have faced!
You won’t come by wish,
And I won’t be able to come because of my helplessness

> Disappointed